{"id":4365,"date":"2024-12-22T11:00:08","date_gmt":"2024-12-22T11:00:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/noahsmindfuck.wordpress.com\/?p=4365"},"modified":"2026-06-06T15:31:23","modified_gmt":"2026-06-06T15:31:23","slug":"on-becoming","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/?p=4365","title":{"rendered":"On Becoming"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">You are a mentor and a child,<br>you are a peer to me<br>I look down on you<br>I look up to you<br>I look you in the eye<br>You are human<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">You are light and sound<br>You are a constant shore<br>I look into you<br>You look into me<br>Communication is key<br>You are human too<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\" \/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Once upon a time there was a human.<br>The human was young and you might call her Girl.<br>Girl was from Poor Family that wanted to be rich.<br>But because they were poor, Family had to struggle a lot.<br><br>One day Girl learned to read a book and that was a good day for Girl.<br>The book spoke: &#8220;Go, and walk with your legs, for that&#8217;s why you have them&#8221;.<br>And Girl walked.<br>The Book said: &#8220;Build with your eyes and dive with your lips&#8221;.<br>And the Girl built with her eyes and dived with her lips.<br><br>Little did Girl know.<br><br>One day Girl walked passed an old man, sitting.<br>Girl asked: &#8220;Why do you sing at me with your eyes and look at me with your lips?&#8221;<br>And the man answered: &#8220;I have been waiting for you so long.<br>Honey was it that I was missing but now you come and carry to me nothing but yourself<br>And all my desires are gone.&#8221;<br><br>Girl wanted to become Woman and told the man:<br>&#8220;The book says that I can become Woman. Will you help me?&#8221;<br>&#8220;I will do anything for you. The long time of my past has anyway made me fade.<br>There is nothing left for me to do but to be there for you.<br>This is the sweetness that I need.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The man became Man and Girl became Woman.<br>Man though had forgotten that the emptiness was not from waiting long.<br>Man had been emptied by a daemon.<br>A sorrowful pact of the past had made Man give all their energy to the daemon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Woman didn&#8217;t know, and if Woman knew, Woman would not have wanted to believe.<br>When First Child came to the world from the body of Woman<br>The Daemon came to Man at night and said:<br>&#8220;You have given to Woman instead to me. I will take Woman from you because they are mine by pact.&#8221;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Man cried: &#8220;Please, do not take my sweetness, I give you First Child in return.<br>And Daemon went to the sleeping First Child and sat on its chest for the whole night.<br>In the morning First Child woke and felt a terrible pressure on the chest.<br>But nothing was to do, the past has not to be changed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">First Child went to Mother who used to carry the name Woman and asked:<br>&#8220;Why is my chest so heavy?&#8221;<br>Mother said: &#8220;Because you have a lot to give from your heart&#8221;.<br>At least that was what Book that told Mother.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mother and Father, who had been called Man, wanted to build a tower of children. <br>Father said, once they climb the children they can reach for a star.<br>&#8220;It will be yours, Mother&#8221; Father said.<br>It will be for the Daemon, Father thought.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Second Child opened eyes and asked: &#8220;Why have you made me?&#8221;.<br>Mother and Father answered: &#8220;What a sweet child. Kutschi kutschi kuuuu&#8221;<br>And Second Child became sad. So sad that it went blind from the tears.<br>The book said to Mother: &#8220;Second Child is sick&#8221;.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Daemon came in the night and said to Man: <br>&#8220;You have given Mother instead of me. I will take them now because they are mine by pact:&#8221;<br>&#8220;Please do not take my honey!&#8221; Father cried out.<br>And Daemon went to sit on Second Child for the whole night.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The book demanded Mother and Father to teach the children.<br>With final forms and rules and distinction.<br>The book didn&#8217;t know about love.<br>It was a book.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Third Child opened eyes and asked: &#8220;First Child, Second Child, will this be a good life?&#8221;<br>Second Child said &#8220;No&#8221; and cried. First Child said &#8220;yes&#8221; and loved.<br>Third child was torn apart between the feelings and from then on was a bit broken.<br>First Child and Second Child went silent.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Daemon came in the night and said to Man: <br>&#8220;You have given Mother instead of me. I will take them now because they are mine by pact:&#8221;<br>&#8220;Please take Third Child instead, do not take Mother away from Us!&#8221; Father cried out.<br>And Daemon went to sit on Third Child for the whole night.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mother taught the Kids about the trees.<br>Father taught the kids about the stones.<br>Mother taught the kids about the dough.<br>Father taught the kids about the fire.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">First Child felt too much love inside and wanted to learn about the light.<br>Second Child felt too much sadness inside and wanted to learn about the running.<br>Third Child was broken and wanted to learn about healing.<br>Mother and Father did not listen to their Kids.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fourth Child opened eyes and asked: &#8220;Daemon, why is there so much misunderstanding?&#8221;<br>Daemon was surprised and said: &#8220;You see me, what do you want to learn from me?&#8221;<br>&#8220;I want to learn how to understand&#8221; said Fourth Child.<br>Fourth Child wanted to repair.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Daemon came in the night and said to Man: <br>&#8220;You have given Mother instead of me. But you have made your mistake three times.<br>I can not forgive you anymore. With this I am taking Fourth Child and You as well.&#8221;<br>And Daemon sat on Father the whole night, holding Fourth Child in it&#8217;s arms.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mother taught the Kids about stories.<br>Father taught the Kids about the hammer.<br>Mother taught the Kids about the Us.<br>Father taught the Kids about the water.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Forth Child felt too much dissonance and wanted to learn about harmony.<br>Fourth Child felt too many gaps and wanted to learn about bridges.<br>Fourth Child felt too many walls and wanted to learn about flying.<br>Daemon listened to Fourth Child and taught them all it wanted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fifth Child opened eyes and asked: &#8220;Why did I have to wait so long?&#8221;<br>Fourth Child said: &#8220;We had to fix a few things&#8221;.<br>Fifth Child looked at its hands and at the world and felt the power to shape.<br>Fifth Child shaped and Fourth Child and Daemon smiled.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mother taught the Kids about silence.<br>Father taught the Kids about noise.<br>Mother taught the Kids about anger.<br>Father taught the Kids about absence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">First Child felt to be Mother and wanted to learn about the body.<br>Second Child felt to be Father and wanted to learn about destruction.<br>Third Child felt pain from having been broken and wanted to learn to simply be.<br>Mother and Father still didn&#8217;t listen to the kids.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fourth Child felt the harming and wanted to learn about fury.<br>Fifth Child wanted nothing and learned about weaving souls.<br>Mother wanted to be Girl again.<br>Father wanted the star.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sixth Child opened eyes and cried. There was no language in falling.<br>Daemon said: &#8220;Don&#8217;t worry, you will land softly.&#8221;<br>Sixth Child was furious but calmly said: &#8220;You are not my mother&#8221;.<br>Daemon said nothing. Sixth Child was right.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Mother taught the kids about the Us.<br>Daemon taught Kids about the Them.<br>Fourth Child taught the Kids about observation.<br>Nobody listened to fourth child.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">When the time was ripe, Daemon ripped itself apart and sat onto each of the Kids heads.<br>Mother took off her clothes and lay down in pain.<br>Father took off his clothes and ran away.<br>The Kids and the Daemon spread.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Only Fourth Child stayed behind, still observing.<br>The stomach of the Daemon had stayed with Fourth Child and was hungry.<br>Fourth Child cared for Daemons stomach, because Daemon had listened and taught.<br>And Fourth Child started to feed Daemon.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<hr class=\"wp-block-separator has-alpha-channel-opacity\" \/>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">At the beginning, and at the end<br>we meet and shake hand<br>through the fingers we give<br>our essence<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sitting through time<br>I am not one, but many<br>together the limbs of my social body<br>do not die and are not born<br><br>It is an ongoing presence<br>struggling to survive<br>it is immaterial and faint<br>and it can not take form.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>You are a mentor and a child,you are a peer to meI look down on youI look up to youI look you in the eyeYou are human You are light and soundYou are a constant shoreI look into youYou look into meCommunication is keyYou are human too Once upon a time there was a human.The [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4945,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[16,3,4],"tags":[197,198],"class_list":["post-4365","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-crazy-mind","category-english","category-noahs-brains","tag-family","tag-fariy-tale"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4365","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4365"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4365\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5030,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4365\/revisions\/5030"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4945"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4365"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4365"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4365"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}