{"id":4343,"date":"2024-07-22T16:30:08","date_gmt":"2024-07-22T16:30:08","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/noahsmindfuck.wordpress.com\/?p=4342"},"modified":"2026-06-06T15:31:23","modified_gmt":"2026-06-06T15:31:23","slug":"for-the-beauty-of-the-act-sailing-1000km-with-a-kayak-through-europe","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/?p=4343","title":{"rendered":"For the beauty of the act &#8211; sailing 1000km with a kayak through Europe"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-vimeo wp-block-embed-vimeo wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio\"><div class=\"wp-block-embed__wrapper\">\n<div class=\"embed-vimeo\"><iframe loading=\"lazy\" title=\"For the beauty of the act - sailing 1000km with a kayak through Europe\" src=\"https:\/\/player.vimeo.com\/video\/987933541?dnt=1&amp;app_id=122963\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"autoplay; fullscreen; picture-in-picture; clipboard-write\"><\/iframe><\/div>\n<\/div><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Facette 1 &#8211; Niederschrift im Moment des Scheiterns und eine Reflektion \u00fcber das Gef\u00fchl, nur noch Aufgeben zu k\u00f6nnen.<\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Fragen zum &#8220;Was&#8221;, Fragen zum &#8220;Wann&#8221;.<br>Scheitern f\u00fchrt zu einem Stolpern im Glauben, im &#8220;Wissen, was richtig ist&#8221;. Doch dieses Scheitern schafft etwas Neues, etwas &#8220;Richtiges&#8221;. Es wird umgew\u00e4lzt und geknetet. Ich sitze in einem Intermarch\u00e9 und lade meine Ger\u00e4te auf. Ich muss einkaufen und Entscheidungen treffen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Soll ich mit dem Zug weiterfahren? Und wenn ja, w\u00e4re das f\u00fcr mich ein Scheitern? Es f\u00fchlt sich fast wie ein Betrug an der Sache an, aber in dem Zustand, in dem das Boot jetzt ist, f\u00fcrchte ich jedes Ein- und Aussteigen aus dem Wasser.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">112 Schleusen \u2013 64 davon habe ich geschafft. Etwas mehr als die H\u00e4lfte. Das Ergebnis:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<ul class=\"wp-block-list\">\n<li>Ein gebrochener Mast, weil ich aus Ersch\u00f6pfung eine Br\u00fccke \u00fcbersehen habe.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Ein verzogenes Boot, da es oft viele Stunden auf dem Wagen verspannt war.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Eine Aluminiumachse des Wagens, die bald durchgeschliffen ist, da seine Gleitlager nicht f\u00fcr solche Distanzen ausgelegt sind.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Eine gebrochene Seitenstrebe des Bootes. Nachdem ich es einen Wasserfall hinuntergelassen hatte und es sich dort verkeilte, musste ich es \u2013 voll beladen, also ~65 kg \u2013 wieder gegen die Str\u00f6mung des Wasserfalls hochziehen. Dabei wurde das Boot zu stark geknickt.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Ein gebrochenes und mehrfach erfolglos repariertes Doppelpaddel.<\/li>\n\n\n\n<li>Eine l\u00f6chrige und durch das Alter stark geschw\u00e4chte Bootshaut.<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ich will es durchziehen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ich will nicht mit dem Zug fahren. Ich will diesen Weg mit dem Boot fortsetzen, ohne es auseinanderbauen zu m\u00fcssen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">&#8220;Koste es, was es wolle!&#8221; \u2013 wie unser Altkanzler zu sagen pflegt? Ich wei\u00df es nicht.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Heute ist Samstag, und ich will vor allem einkaufen und dann einen ruhigen Platz zum Entspannen finden, damit ich das Paddel reparieren kann, was ich ja schon seit \u00d6sterreich vorhabe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Vielleicht ergibt sich sogar die M\u00f6glichkeit, den Mast zu reparieren<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h3 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Facette 2 &#8211; die pl\u00e4tschernden Gedanken, von den Wellen getragen und vom Wind verst\u00e4rkt<\/h3>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Transition. Moving. Away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Gender Dysphoria is it called, when you do not feel &#8220;at home&#8221; in your body, as &#8220;male&#8221; or &#8220;female&#8221;.<br>Gender Dysphoria is treated as a disease and the treatment is a Gender Alignment Procedure &#8211; a GAP.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bridging the gap from the man to the woman, we are treated like switches. You can switch from &#8220;safe zone a&#8221; to &#8220;safe zone b&#8221;, but recognition is only in the state of stability, hiding remains in the state of transition.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Gender Dysphoria* I call it, that I do not feel &#8220;at home&#8221; in the concept of gender itself. Gender Dysphoria* is not treated like a disease, it is treated as a hirngespinst. A made up problem.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">There is no recognition for the switch that fell from the wall, broken. There is no recognition for the direction or for the &#8220;safe zone&#8221;. Also, there is no such thing as the safe zone, because the safe zone A and B are protected with wires with barbs, a minefield of social distancing mines is laid out, traps of keeping the status quo, for those who are safe to stay safe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I have to be making my own safe zone and I do so, but it is exhausting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">It is exhausting.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Because where I am going it is dark, and I have to make the light not only for me but for everyone else, to see me. To see the colors hidden by the darkness. To see the shapes, alien and weird, long forgotten and colored by the trash of a power hungry, controlling density in our society.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Transitioning. Away! Your strings shall not hold me, your Riemen don&#8217;t turn my wheels anymore for you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Can I be finally me, not you and not your projection? If I need to rip this tug of yours I will. Because your safety is only so if mine is too and you will keep the mines, the traps and barbs in place for everyone, to struggle too. I don&#8217;t see your safety there, I see you only keeping the light with you, because you are afraid of the dark. Of the shapes. Of the alien. Of the colors. Hidden.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Facette 1 &#8211; Niederschrift im Moment des Scheiterns und eine Reflektion \u00fcber das Gef\u00fchl, nur noch Aufgeben zu k\u00f6nnen. Fragen zum &#8220;Was&#8221;, Fragen zum &#8220;Wann&#8221;.Scheitern f\u00fchrt zu einem Stolpern im Glauben, im &#8220;Wissen, was richtig ist&#8221;. Doch dieses Scheitern schafft etwas Neues, etwas &#8220;Richtiges&#8221;. Es wird umgew\u00e4lzt und geknetet. 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