{"id":3843,"date":"2018-04-05T11:46:04","date_gmt":"2018-04-05T11:46:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/noahsmindfuck.wordpress.com\/?p=3843"},"modified":"2018-04-05T11:46:04","modified_gmt":"2018-04-05T11:46:04","slug":"confronting-my-own-sexism","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/?p=3843","title":{"rendered":"Confronting my own Sexism"},"content":{"rendered":"

As I write about<\/a>\u00a0 the weird things that happen in my head when I see an attractive woman (few are not attractive) I figured that it is very hard to describe how I rebel against myself. I have this ongoing discussion of two parts of my subconsciousness, one fighting against the other, their standpoints are:<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Hedonist NoahCritical Anti-Sexist Noah
\n<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Wohoo, I want to have sex with so
\nmany different women! And at best,
\nnow!<\/p>\n

Hey, hey, chill! First thing, question
\nyour desire! (Thank you, Swani)
\nAnd second: Well, it is nice that you think like
\nthat but not everyone on this planet thinks like
\nthat and especially not at the same time when you
\ndo!<\/p>\n

What the fuck do you want? I feel that great
\ndesire and it feels really good. I really want
\nto go and ask that woman who is passing or the
\nother one that is sitting over there in the park on
\ntheir point of view, maybe they have the same
\nfeeling at the moment and we could … \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

Stop that, you idiot! Leave the other people alone and
\ndon’t carry the topic of sex around and stuff it in everyones
\nface! I learned that women get enough of that “Hey, wouldn’t
\nyou like to … you know…” and offers for sex like that.
\nJust because you don’t get them all the time doesn’t mean you
\ncan run around and do exactly that.<\/p>\n

But hey, what if I frame it with other words, to explain
\nmyself, to show and declare understanding for the situation
\nand be like:
\n“Hey, can I talk to you?”
\n<assuming ‘yes’ as answer>
\n“I would like to speak about something rather private, is that
\nok?”
\n<Assuming ‘yes’ as answer><\/p>\n

You are assuming a lot of “Yes” here!<\/p>\n

“I am aware if you are confronted with it a lot you might be
\nrather pissed but at the moment for me it makes sense to
\nsay this: In my imagination we would have a very good time
\nhaving sex and I feel a strong desire for having sex with you.
\nDo you have the same impression? Do you also feel a strong desire
\nfor sex?”<\/p>\n

What if they answer with ‘No’?<\/p>\n

Well then I of course say thank you and good-by,
\nsorry for having interrupted you.<\/p>\n

And what is exactly so different to a creep coming
\ndirectly to them saying “Hey, wanna have sex?”<\/p>\n

Well, I show them that the main focus is not only for
\nme to have sex but to figure out if the both of us would
\nenjoy that. And what a feminist are you, patronizing women
\nbased on mathematical statistics, isn’t that a farce itself? Why don’t
\nyou let them make that decision, whether they accept the questions
\nor smash it by simply saying no?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

There are many situations of that kind. And always both positions are to be criticised. Always both positions are somewhat right or wrong.<\/p>\n

The thing that bothers me the most is that they are only in my head, but this is not a problem that I could solve on my own.
\nFor that not even books and fancy statistics will help. It has to be deduced from the acts and answers of the living beings around me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Being socialized as a male and aquiring a feminist perspective can lead to strange contradictiosn that I have to solve in my head.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4828,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[17,3,4],"tags":[203,255,364,418,431,511,512],"class_list":["post-3843","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-deep-to-the-core","category-english","category-noahs-brains","tag-feminism","tag-hedonism","tag-male","tag-patronizign","tag-pick-up","tag-sex","tag-sexism"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3843","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3843"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3843\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4828"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3843"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3843"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3843"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}