{"id":2716,"date":"2016-02-17T22:45:27","date_gmt":"2016-02-17T22:45:27","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/noahsmindfuck.wordpress.com\/?p=2716"},"modified":"2016-02-17T22:45:27","modified_gmt":"2016-02-17T22:45:27","slug":"why","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/?p=2716","title":{"rendered":"Why&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&#8230; do I feel pain looking into the future?<br \/>\n&#8230; do I pity myself?&#8230; is it dragging in my heart, when I see others recognizing me?<br \/>\n&#8230; is there this pressure, keeping me from being free?<\/p>\n<p>It is all just in the family.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230; does my life feel so completely destroyed?<br \/>\n&#8230; have my inspirational eyes nothing to see but void?<br \/>\n&#8230; has my endless optimism died?<br \/>\n&#8230; stands pessimism guard at my side?<\/p>\n<p>It is all just in the family.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230; didn&#8217;t you stop there, early enough?<br \/>\n&#8230; is it your turn to gain from my pain?<br \/>\n&#8230; do you keep on living that lie?<br \/>\n&#8230; don&#8217;t you respond to my cry?<\/p>\n<p>It is all just in the family.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230; does my heart hurt, when I see myself in the mirror?<br \/>\n&#8230; don&#8217;t you leave space in my mind next to sorrow?<br \/>\n&#8230; don&#8217;t you just vanish into thin air?<br \/>\n&#8230; do you not want to share?<\/p>\n<p>It is all just in the family.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Because this Tinitus is killing me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":2762,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,22,4],"tags":[197],"class_list":["post-2716","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-english","category-lyrik-und-gedichte","category-noahs-brains","tag-family"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2716","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2716"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2716\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/2762"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2716"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2716"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.noahessl.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2716"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}